Maybe it is a combination of things. The happenings in life around me and personally. No, not trying to rally up a pity party but rather trying to vent. Maybe by venting I will feel...really feel something more than this nothing feeling I am wearing today.
I feel as something is missing. I feel that I have been blessed in so many ways when I compare situations to others that I must not feel so low. I feel helpless in so many ways. I could go on and on. BUT....I wont.
The best way I can describe how I am feeling is by saying that at this very moment on this very day I feel like a bug who hit a windshield....weird I know but with the help of the man upstairs this too shall pass.
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Hey there bug on a windshield! I hope I didn't bum you out with my post last night. Brian was working and I was just feeling sad. I think it had to do with the fact that we got twins in our NICU room yesterday. Twin girls. With Brian working and me sitting there in the rocker, with Abby in my arms, I had nothing to do for 8 hours but sit and think about what could have been. I'm better today though! Abby and Madison were born 6 weeks ago today! Hard to believe but something we should celebrate, right? And today I was reminded of just what I have to be thankful for.
Ok...that's all for now. Chin up, ok? Life is GOOD. :-)
I think it is a casualty of being a mom in our society. We are doing the work we are called to do, yet everything around us says that is not good enough. What else could we be doing? How else could we be contributing to society? Even if we don't always identity it as such, I think it is always working on our psyche. I agree that being a SAHM is one of the hardest jobs there is, not because the work is hard, but because there is no way to place value on what we do each day.
Oh, and hi! I'm a friend of Evan's. We met in college many (many) years ago. I have been lurking on your blog since he told me about you. Your kids are precious.
Hang in there. Tomorrow is another day!
Oh ML, so glad to have seen your email earlier today, and to know that you are feeling, at least, a little better :) Keep your chin up - and be thankful that you aren't actually the splattered bug!!!
Love you & (((hugs)))
Just wanted to say good (early) morning! Thought about you this weekend at convention! You are so not the bug (even though it feels like it sometimes). You are making an amazing difference!
I'm late commenting on this post, but I just want you to know that you are so not a bug on a windshield!!! You're a wonderful mother, wife, and friend. You've had such an impact on my life and you are absolutely treasured by me! You are fabulous in every single way:)
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